merry christmas an a crappy new yr!

well it's nearly new yr.... agen! an 4 me it's not lookin like it's goin 2 b the best! 4 a while i havn't felt 2 gd an i got 2 go doctors on the 10th so can i ask 4 prayer tht it all goes ok plz? my life is takin a turn 4 the worst at the moment1 not so long bk my life an relationship couldn't get any better! now i'm lettin my self get torn away by silly little things! this needs 2 stop! i feel down all the time an i feel it's because my relationship with god is disapearing!i need help an prayer 2 help me get bk on thre right trck! in my opwn prayer i'm asking 4 forgivness help but i just can't bring myself 2 listen 4 answers, so i justask 4 prayer plz an any kind of help i will b really gr8ful!!!!


thnk very much ma friends!!!!!PEACE

p.s. thx 4 the prezzies people!

again!!

well as u no i'm a christian an thts kwl but what isn't kwl is the fact tht i'm lettin myself get dragged away by things i shouldn't! this is bad an because of it i'm lettin my self get pulled away from the 1 secure thing i have in life an thts GOD! io keep sayin 2 myself i'm gonna repent but thn i do it again an it just killin me man! because of al this i have had sum1 at the church where i go on sundays tell me they have been prayin 4 me! she's an old lady an i saw her y/day an she told me tht she couldn't believe a young lad like me looked so down on a sunday night! an i thought 2 my self bless her! i hardl;y no her yet she has been prayin 4 me 2 get stronger an 2 b honest i was really emotional wen she told me! i desided tht day tht i'm not goin 2 let myself be distracked from whats important anymore! this is something i'm really gonna do an i've never really wanted 2 do anything as badly as i want 2 do this in my hole life an i'm gonna start this by becoming a new person in the new yr! so baptism any1?althought my faith is only young i feel tht my reason in life is 2 follo the LORD an commit myself 2 him! he has something 4 every1 and i don't wonna miss out on anything tht he wants 4 me so this is what i believe GOD wants me 2 do! this may all read as a load of gobble but i no what i'm trying 2 say so sorry if u don't lol! can i please ask 4 prayer in this subject kinda thing because this is really somthing i wona do and i could do with all the suport i can get so thx people!















at ingustryme an sum of the lads were in our dorm an we got tlkin an we had this realy kwl convo about life an stuff an this wor like a quick thing it lasted nearly 6 hours which i think was pretty impressive 2 say we're lads lol! anywayz we got tlkin an thn the question of is there a reason 4 everything? then i said if everythin didn't happen y are we havin this convo? is it because we're sad people? no! my answer was yes an i told thm how i am a christian an i wasn't ashamed i told thm straight tht i believe jesus is my saviour an tht he is the reason i live! an then i told thm tht i believe GOD makes everythin happen weather it b gd or bad because weather we're christian or not we all have 2 take sum persicution* don't no how 2 spell sorry*an with per...... comes gd! an i really believe this an i think they do now becasue they were so stuned at what i was tellin thm about GOD an how great he is they sat in silence an just listened 2 me! i felt like i was preachin a sermon on a sunday or somthin man it was kwl noin tht i was tlkin 2 2 lads tht wern't christians and they were listenin 2 me tlk about somthing i strongly believe in! it was really kwl!thn we got on 2 the subject of what is the meaning of life? as sum of u may no i am trialing with birmingham city an they new this 2 an i told thm tht i'm not bothered if i get in or not becasue at the end of the day GOD has a plan 4 me an he will lead me the way he thinks best an i can't wait 4 tht 2 happen because i no he will b with me every step of the way! again they agreed with me an thn they started askin about the bible! not noin much about the bible i couldn't really say much on the matter but thn i asked thm if they thought GOD was real? the both said " don't no " th i asked thm a question! some of the bible is made up af different peoples acounts with the LORD an these people lived in completely different places yet they still wrote about the same thing GOD! do u think tht this could of happened if he weren't real? thn both sat there an just wondered about it an i thought wouldn't it b gr8 if in these few hours i had bought 2 lads a new life in somthing i believe an they can believe 2! i prayed tht night! i prayed tht the LORD put his hand uponm these 2 lads an showed thm the way 2 him! i just pray this happens because under their bad boy images there really kwl guys! so i just ask tht u pray 4 thm 2 find the right path an wlk it! the path 2 heaven is narrow but those who have faith an believe won't wonder but those who don't will wonder on 2 the motor way tht leads 2 hell! anywayz this part was really random but it has tuched me so enjoy if it makes sense!















i have just read some of si's blog about his friends an stuff an it reminded me of a film i watched 2day called Christmas Shoes! this film really made me greatful 4 what i have! in the film this kid has a mom who is a music teacher but she developes heart disease an the begins 2 strugle an her son over hears his mom an her friends tlking about what she loves 2 do which was dance because thts how her an her husband met at a dancing skwl an now wen she puts a pair of dancing shoes on she feels really special! the boy thn goes out an see's sum shoes an he really wants thm so he comes up with the idea tht if he collects cans he will b able 2 raise enough money 2 buy them 4 his mom b4 she dies! cuttin the story short he dosn't manage 2 raise the money but a man in the film tht plays a main role buys thm 4 himan he makes it home just intime 2 show his mom! he puts thm on her feet an says these are the shoes u will wear in heaven! hearing this her husband says u don't need 2 hold on any longer an she goes! this really tuched me an i just thought 2 my self how much i take things 4 granted an how muchthey mean 2 me! now 2day i'm goin 2 do somthing i should have done last week asn tell som1 somthing an it may end up bad but it's worth ago so i'm gonna hold ma breath pray an hope 4 the best lol! anywayz thx 4 reading this weird blog an stuff hope i ay freaked any1 out lol cya all soon peopla and amerry chrtimas 2 u! don't 4 get the really reason we celerbrate! PEACE

hey there party people!

MANNNNNNNNNN!!!! i hvan't blogged 4 ages sorry! so much has happened, not all gd tho:( wel 1st there has been seasonal come dancin which me an grace won i thought it was a gd old lauf an every1 deserved 2 win 2 b honest! (shake tht ass jon) an thn i was at ingestry! tht was so kwl it's unbelieveable i had a wkd time but missed all ma friends so in-away i'm glad 2 b bk:D i'm not gonna go into much detail about this stuff cuz i'm gonna do another blog now about other stuf thts goin on so yh!

learn from the little kids!

heloooo! well i was at work last week up oakham skwl an it's only just came 2 me what i was thinkin bout! everyday on the news or else where wh hear how sum1 has been killed because of there skin colour or religious back ground an everyday at high skwls there is some kind of racism but while i was at work last week i saw these 2 kids 1 a girl an she was asian an the other a boy white! an they were playin 2gether without any care 4 what colour there skin was or what they c on the tele an these 2 kids were old enough 2 understand the things tht were happenin yet it dodn't bother thm or get thm thinkin of their different i'm not playin with u! they both wlked 2 the games 2 gether picked a game an played it al night! then both there parents came at the same time an they both sat there crying their eyes up becasue they had 2 go! now if they were a bit older and had neva seen each other b4 in there lives do u think they would sit there an play 2 gether or caal for each other on a night time? probly not! if kids of the age of 7 and younger came get along without isolating them selves just because they look different or believe in different things y can't we? we are mnent to b older and wiser thm thn yet they are acting older thm us half the time! i think this is something everybody in the world could learn from just by sitting an watchin 2 children play 2 gether could solve the world of some of it's problems!




so there ya go people! my thought of the day lol hope it tuches u like it has me cya all
PEACE an GOD bless!xxxxxxxxx

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woopwoop!!!

hello 2 u ma friends!!!!!!!!:D well 2night i'm goin 2 friday club cuz i ay bin in absolutly agesssssssssssss an plus i ay got footie which is a gd thing, infact it's betta thn gd it's gr8! i'll b able 2 c some people i havn't seen in a long time so that'll b kwl!
i must apologise 2 the grace because i feel sorry 4 her cuz she gotta dance with me an it's just gonna b helarious so ya no!

every1 finally saw my 1 true talent wednesday which is ***********drum roll************** leap froggin! wa a weird talent but i think u will agree i'm quite gd hehehe! wel i don't really have anythin exciting 2 blog 2 b honest have i! this is just random rabble tht i neva had chance 2 say at school! oo i found sumin gay 2 tlk bout!!

i have 2 people tht i no who have crushes on me lol i in yh 9 an 1 in yr 11 so thts pretty funny but they 1 person i want 2 have a crush on me dosn't so thts a bit of a blip but what can ya do? just in case ( to john no it's not ***** but it would b rather nice lol )

anywayz i'm gonna do a second blog now an tlk about my girl isues lol so peace 2 all ma friends an stuff!

heyyy!!!!!

hey just thought i need 2 blog ths cuz i no si will agree wiv me! me n si went 2 this youth consert thing in a church in kiddy an i aint jokin man they have as much youth as we have a church it is unreal! an the godly presence there aswell is amazing every kid there aint bothered or scared 2 get up on a stage an tell every1 what god has done 4 thm and they were all so well coming aswell!they had all this kwl stuff aswell like screens on the walls and speakerrs made by nasa! i mean cum on i thought our speakers were kwl but 2 b made by nasa thts just insane! they are involved wiv this thing called g12 an every person in the church no's what it's about 2 an 2 me it sounded really encouraging an kwl! oh yes there was alot of talent there 2 and the band were gd lol! another thing which i thought was inaway strage was tht they keep there sex's apart which would b kinda gd inaway becasue then they onny have 1 thing 2 consetrate on which is kinda a gd idea really! there church is really blessed man wiv so many kwl people an i really hope tht our church can grow in the same way theres is cuz tht would b really kwl! i would say loadz more but u just really had 2 b there 2 no what me an si will b tlkin bout! hope ya doh mind me sayin si but i felt tht wen we re-commited our selves 2 the lord last night it felt like the right time place so tht was kwl!anywayz hope god tuches use like it has them!


cya all!!
peace 2 u ma friends!:P

hey all!

hey people hows it goin?
well 2night at church our pasta tim was tlkin without plans inda thing an he kept refering to the touth meaning me an 5 other girls like and he kept refering 2 us and we thought it was his plans 4 the night but it wasn't and at the end of the service he came over 2 us and he said that he felt the LORD was trying 2 tell him something btu he didn't get it and he told us that through the week we could go about living our everyday lives or take the different option of tlking 2 GOD and asking him what his was tryin 2 get through 2 us all!c now i have a problem because b4 i was asking GOd 2 tlk 2 me and open my heart and ears 2 him and then a few weeks ago he finally tlked 2 me but not in a normal kinda way! all he said or all i thought he said was my name! then i closed my eyes an i saw stripes, now in the bible iit says that by his stripes we are healed! an it got me thinking that it wasn't me that just made it up it was him tlkin 2 me because i never new anything about the stripes until this happend! but wa i really need help with is how 2 tlk 2 GOD and ask him stuff! how do i gear him? how do i no wen he's tlking 2 me? these are all questions that i ave running around in my little homer simpson brain everyday! another huge question is does GOD believe my love for him is real? or does he think that i just want miricles from him! i no 2 some people i come across as a little reble child who wants 2 have fun and party all night long but hey who dosn't but i want 2 do that with the LORD by my side knowing that my love for him is real!! all i really want 2 ask is how do i get myself 2 listen 2 GOD an tlk 2 him an get an answer or is tht another gift from the heavens? alll this i need help with in my young christian life and i spose really i'm just asking for advice and prayer which i've never asked for prayer b4 so it's abit weird like! anywayz not many people read my blog but those who do can u help plz cuz i really need it right now to reasure myself in the LORD!



so thx 4 reading this long and weird piece of blogage!

PEACE